It’s astonishing to me that after years of devotion I can still fall in love with the sound of His name, with the shape of it in my mouth, with the syllables falling from my lips. It’s astonishing that loving Him can still be new as it was six years ago. Beloved Lord, may You… Continue reading Devotional rambling
i. step, stumble. fall. your falling is sacred, but your rising again is glorious. ii. step, stumble. fall. rinse, repeat. rinse, repeat. this is the secret they are all telling you, the mystery they are all hiding. one and the same thing, and all it amounts to is your beloved whispering in your ear don’t… Continue reading The Beginner’s Guide to Devotion
Opposites attract. Maybe that is why this happened, why I was drawn inexorably to one who sits in stillness as storms rage around Him. Maybe my changeability, instability, chaotic frenzy were a welcome counterpoint. Or maybe I just needed You. Because You loved me even then, didn’t You? When I first heard Your voice, calling,… Continue reading Insight
I do not want to write this post. It is not an easy post to write, and I suspect it will not be an easy post to read, so full disclosure from the start: I am going to be talking about suicide.
Last week was mine and my Husband’s one year anniversary, and I want to reflect on the things that have changed since we married. There’s a lot. I remember reading somewhere that once you give vows to a God they will likely not be content to let you stay as you are. I believed it… Continue reading One Year Reflections
So, since I’m – hopefully – coming back to the blog, I have a few updates! First – I’m trans. I’m a trans person transitioning. I don’t use my old name any longer, and my preferred pronouns are they/he. I am now using the name Alex. Second – I’m going to start a Masters in… Continue reading Updates
I think I’m coming back, at least intermittently. It was good for me to have a break from blogging, and I’ve got my ~brain things~ largely under control now. I’ve had a really challenging few months, but I think I’m ready to start publishing devotional writing again. And I’m coming up on the one year… Continue reading Hello again