It’s astonishing to me that after years of devotion I can still fall in love with the sound of His name, with the shape of it in my mouth, with the syllables falling from my lips. It’s astonishing that loving Him can still be new as it was six years ago. Beloved Lord, may You… Continue reading Devotional rambling
Opposites attract. Maybe that is why this happened, why I was drawn inexorably to one who sits in stillness as storms rage around Him. Maybe my changeability, instability, chaotic frenzy were a welcome counterpoint. Or maybe I just needed You. Because You loved me even then, didn’t You? When I first heard Your voice, calling,… Continue reading Insight
Reaching for You I find You are already nearer than breath. Hush, You tell me, hush. Listen to the sounds of us. His heartbeat drums within my mind, a steadying rhythm against my fear. I can hear our breaths tangled together, can feel His smile against my skin. Stop. Wait. Still-warm blood drips from His… Continue reading Perspective
You found me. In the midst of utter darkness, You found me. You always do. I should not be surprised. You have always found me, always carried me home – I’m finally starting to believe You always will. This is home, Beloved, here by Your shrine, here in Your arms, here by Your side. There… Continue reading Coming home
Come on up what are you waiting for? You are willing, and I am able to take your load, your heavy load. I am stronger than the beasts of this land, I have a softer touch than any human hand.
In your mind’s eye see Cernunnos. No, younger than that. Younger still. See Him before time etched its wisdom into His face, before the long exile of the gods by the one god. When the world was full of his brothers and sisters, when they could be found in every river and stream, every mountain… Continue reading Cernunnos and the Starry Lady
Every now and then I get it into my head that my spiritual practice isn’t enough, that the things I do for and with Cernunnos are insufficient. Other people would do more, I think. Better people would do more. I am always trying to be better. Mostly I try to be better for His sake,… Continue reading Back to basics