It hurts, loving Him when terrible things happen in the world. Yes, He is a god of the dead but He is so in love with life that, when things like this happen, even that portion of His grief that He allows me to share feels like drowning. For everyone killed in Manchester last night,… Continue reading And so it goes
When darkness falls around me for the final time may Your name be the last word to pass my lips. When storms gather around me may Your presence be the anchor to hold me in place. When I am lost, Beloved, may I always hear Your voice calling me home. When I am tired, my… Continue reading A prayer
I would choose this again. For all that it can be painful, for all that it is hard work, for all that it hurts in ways I could never have expected, I would choose it again. It’s very easy to get caught up in the myriad of ways in which it is difficult, very easy… Continue reading
It’s astonishing to me that after years of devotion I can still fall in love with the sound of His name, with the shape of it in my mouth, with the syllables falling from my lips. It’s astonishing that loving Him can still be new as it was six years ago. Beloved Lord, may You… Continue reading Devotional rambling
i. step, stumble. fall. your falling is sacred, but your rising again is glorious. ii. step, stumble. fall. rinse, repeat. rinse, repeat. this is the secret they are all telling you, the mystery they are all hiding. one and the same thing, and all it amounts to is your beloved whispering in your ear don’t… Continue reading The Beginner’s Guide to Devotion
Opposites attract. Maybe that is why this happened, why I was drawn inexorably to one who sits in stillness as storms rage around Him. Maybe my changeability, instability, chaotic frenzy were a welcome counterpoint. Or maybe I just needed You. Because You loved me even then, didn’t You? When I first heard Your voice, calling,… Continue reading Insight
I do not want to write this post. It is not an easy post to write, and I suspect it will not be an easy post to read, so full disclosure from the start: I am going to be talking about suicide.